The Best Kept Secrets..

Trudging down the aisle of life how often are we are led to believe that our worst kept secrets are actually kept secret from the ones we would rather not share with. And those who come to know our secrets they keep it close to their bosoms for reason more then we could think of. Some would use it to get back at you(revenge they say),while others not to hurt others. I right now fall in the second half of it. And m doing all I can to for someone to know that the secrets they keep from me are the secrets I would never know. Yet I would want them to know that tis no use keeping it from me for I know it all. Every bit much more than they could ever think of. Or may be slightly less. But I cant help it...... or Can I??

Provoking Thots..

Knowing wht is right to do and doin wht is right to do are two different realms of life.. More often then not we know or if I m allowed to say even are sure wht is right but then then the hassles arrive only when we decide to do. To shackle all status quo is difficult task for us all. Even though we know that the rewards of the errand run are pretty high, not till we are sure that stakes are high do we make the move. Then comes the part of trail. The move where we have to make the move based on our decisions and for this we have our Lord's Prayer "Save us from the time of Trail".
How many of us have grossly sinned in looking out for someone to pin up for what has completely been our own decision. This thought was provoked by someone very dear to me stating that "Owning up to my own decisions at the end of the day alone seems valid to me". The person spoken of in here further says, no tis the way everyone in the world behave. Well well wht to say but magnanimous. Wish half the ppl around get such magnanimity the world for sure will be much finer a place to live.
How difficult is it to own up to ones own thot and how easy to get someone to be the escape goat for erring we err. The last few weeks have been really horrendous for me and serves as fine example for this. It has pained me deeply to see that this is the real world. Not to say i m idealist but may be I gotta get groomed better for this world. People all over, no matter who, are just been around to hog up all the lime light. It doesnt even count, no matter it belongs to them or not, If it is coveted(desired by all) it is their. Everyone is out there just to snatch what belongs, not to them and I m perfectly meddled(confused) whom to trust and whom to look up to? The answer here comes is that You know the right answer is none but then again the right thing to do isnt tht.
Then again my neighbour at work a nice lady of grace(atleast is pretty nice to me), the things she told me("sayin inspite of being a lady myself I say") and wht my mentor taught me mostly abt the fairer sex(gals) and how it completely falls in line wid my own exp wid that someone dear.. Ofcourse what they were saying wasnt something very nice and i had to take it with a pinch of salt(very bitter).. Jees all i can hope is tht it not being true. For if it were true, I would loose all my hope in humanity..
GOD Save my Soul.. In thee I trust my Heart..
So Long...

Just a Passing thot..

I myself dont know if the disappointment is justified or am i just over reacting. They say i m over reacting. But then where is the nemesis they speak about. Or is it the poetic nemesis that i m seeing it myself or is it just he boredom which has crept in. Hopelessnes itself has its own prizes but its a leech which sucks on your life blood. Just the other day i heard someone say, "you are blessed for you have seen so many disappointments so early in your life.. all the more it provides you greater immunity to life. you rise above it all for the gud of you alone." I do see a justification in all i read, hear and experience. Agree that obstacles and patience are the sole tools to your success but then sometimes i doubt my limits. I m trusting on my will to mop it up wid the shroud i hold still i hope not to vent it on when i shouldnt have.